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Unfaithful: Hope and Healing After Infidelity Paperback – November 1, 2009
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Ten years ago, Gary and Mona Shriver experienced the devastation caused by adultery, and in the course of trying to save themselves, they wrote this book. Raw, transparently honest, the Shrivers' story alone is an inspiration, offering hope and practical strategies for healing. Now this updated and revised edition adds other real-life stories of betrayal and forgiveness, and new information defining adultery, including the destruction of emotional affairs. Some doubt if a marriage can truly heal after the ravages of infidelity. Unfaithful proves you can. It's not easy . . . but it can be done. Is it worth it? Yes. And you hold the first step--and hope--in your hand.
- Print length288 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherDavid C Cook
- Publication dateNovember 1, 2009
- Dimensions5.5 x 0.72 x 8.2 inches
- ISBN-101434765334
- ISBN-13978-1434765338
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unfaithful
Hope and Healing After Infidelity
By Gary Shriver, Mona ShriverDavid C. Cook
Copyright © 2009 Gary and Mona ShriverAll rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4347-6533-8
Contents
Acknowledgments,Foreword,
Preface to Revision,
1. Revelation,
2. Commitment,
3. Faith,
4. Admitting Our Roles,
5. Never Going Back,
6. Willing to Endure the Pain,
7. Acknowledging the Losses,
8. Talk, Talk, and Talk Again,
9. Forgiveness,
10. Rebuilding Trust,
11. Hedges,
12. Emotional Affairs,
13. Healing Timeline from a Couple's Perspective,
Afterword: A Personal Letter to You from Gary,
Appendix,
Notes,
Understand and Influence Your Man's Sexuality,
CHAPTER 1
Revelation
He reveals the deep things of darkness and brings deep shadows into the light.
Job 12:22
Gary's Story
It must have been about 9:30 p.m. as I pulled into the driveway. Everything looked dark and settled down for the evening. As I stopped the car, my heart pounded in my chest like never before. For a moment I wondered if I might be having a heart attack. I took a deep breath, got out of the car, and headed for the back door. I unlocked it and walked onto the back porch. The house was quiet. The three boys were in bed. The only light was a dim glow from the master bedroom at the end of the hall.
Our bedroom. I wondered if that would be the case in the aftermath of the bomb I was about to drop. I stopped and asked myself, Should I really go through with this? This could be the end of everything I know as my life: my family, my church, my business, my friends. Not one area of my life would be unaffected by the event about to occur. Should I tell her or just keep living the lie?
No, I couldn't continue deceiving her. I had just spent the last two hours in my senior pastor's office confessing my sin. I confessed the double life I had been living for the last few years. I couldn't believe his first response. "Are you serious?" he asked. "I can never tell when you're kidding me. Are you really serious?" I sat in his office with tears streaming down my face, and he asked if I was serious.
He also didn't want it to be true.
I just nodded, and he let it sink in. We talked and prayed, and he kept looking at me. I knew what was going through his mind. He was saying great words of spiritual wisdom and offering encouragement, but behind his words, shock and disbelief were apparent. He referred to spiritual leaders who had fallen. He said, "This is happening all around us."
At that point, I could only think, That doesn't make this any less ugly. I knew he was trying to encourage and comfort me in my darkest hour, but the darkness that enveloped me was beyond penetration. He and I both knew that everything was not all right and that it wasn't going to be.
He asked if Mona knew. I shook my head no. He looked me straight in the eye and asked, "Do you intend to tell her?"
I nodded.
"When?"
"Right now," I said. "I need to go right now."
It had taken all I could muster to meet my pastor and confess my dark and horrible behavior. I had to complete my confession. And I had to do it now. On my way home I thought of other men I knew who had committed adultery and who hadn't said a thing to their wives. They seemed to have gotten away with it. But a Bible verse kept ringing in my ears: "You may be sure that your sin will find you out" (Numbers 32:23).
And that it had. Earlier that afternoon the recording studio engineer at my production company had confronted me with this "problem" he thought I had. He came quoting Matthew 18:15–17, saying that if I didn't come clean, he would go to my pastor with the affair he believed I was having.
Affair. What a fluffy word. It sounds so cheery and acceptable. Let's call it what it really is: adultery. Black-hearted, not caring anything about anybody else, completely self-centered, the absolute epitome of selfishness. Adultery. And I was an adulterer. Finally after years of my wrestling with Him, God had brought me to a point of brokenness. I just couldn't go on like this anymore. I had to tell Mona. The only way I could ever hope to save my marriage was to be totally honest. God was chasing me. I had to deal with it now!
I walked into the bedroom. The lamp on her bedside table glowed. There she lay, leaning back on her pillow propped up against the wall, reading. She looked up and said, "How was your meeting?" Just about then our eyes met. "Honey? What's wrong?"
I hadn't rehearsed anything. I didn't know what to say. I sat down on the bed next to her and looked in her eyes.
"You're scaring me," she said.
I started to cry.
"Now you're really scaring me."
"I've betrayed you," I whispered.
Her eyes glazed over. She seemed to stare through me. "What?"
"I've been unfaithful to you," I repeated.
She went limp. I thought for a second she was going to pass out. Her stare went from distant to direct and cold.
"Who?" she demanded.
I said the name.
"I knew it," she said.
But I knew she hadn't known. I tried to hold her. She started to hold me but then pushed me away. She was shell-shocked.
"How long?" she asked.
I whispered, "A long time."
"How long?"
"A couple of years."
"Years? Ever since you started working with her?"
"Almost."
Her lip quivered.
As her world crumbled around her feet, my heart raced again. This time I could feel it in my temples. How could I say more? How can I, Lord? I can't tell her everything. Yet God was insistent: Tell her!
I felt like Moses must have. I can't, Lord. I can't!
Tell her now! God demanded.
I had to tell her everything. God burned into my heart that if our marriage were to have any chance at all, it had to be with a clean slate. No more lies. No more secrets. I had to tell her everything.
"There's more."
"More? What do you mean more?"
"There was a one-night stand with another woman."
I honestly did think she was going to pass out at that point. Her eyes rolled back into her head, and then things got eerie.
I knew at that moment our lives had changed forever, and I didn't know what to expect in the aftermath of my horrible revelation. After we sat for what seemed to be an eternity, her blank stare suddenly focused, and the flurry of questions began. "Do you love her?"
"No, I love you."
"Do you want a divorce?"
"No, I want to stay with you. Do you want a divorce?"
"I don't know what I want. Why did you do this?"
I didn't know how to answer that question. I didn't know how I'd gotten where I was. I explained there had been no pursuit. I said that it was a friendship that had gotten out of control, and that I had felt trapped. I had never stopped loving Mona.
The blank stare was back. I kept trying to explain. She didn't want to hear—or couldn't hear—anything more. After a while she started asking me about the second woman.
"It was a one-night thing. Honestly, she threw herself at me. She made up her mind to have me. She set her sights, and she was going to have her way."
What was I saying? It was all the truth, but what was I trying to do here? Justify my adultery? My second incidence of adultery at that!
I shut my mouth and started to cry again. I didn't know what to do. She didn't want to talk about it anymore. She didn't want anything from me. I was dying inside. I needed to know what she was thinking. She was in shock. Was she thinking of leaving? Was she going to ask me to leave? What was going on in her head?
It seemed there was nothing more to say. I offered to sleep on the couch, but she declined my offer. She explained that if we were going to try to work this through, she saw no sense in my sleeping on the couch.
If. Such a small word to hold one's whole future.
It was quiet and still, but I knew the explosion was yet to come. She stared blankly into the corner of the ceiling. I lay there, knowing her mind was whirling. I was sure her thoughts were bouncing from one horrific scenario to another, and all I could do was lie next to her and watch as her entire foundation cracked, crumbled, and fell away. Every now and then I could hear a sob escape her throat.
My God, what have I done? In a matter of seconds I have ripped the heart from the woman I love. The bride of my youth. Will she ever forgive me? Can she ever forgive me? I had no idea how much pain this would cause. If we make it through this, one thing is certain: We will never be the same again.
God, please forgive me.
Mona, if you can find it in your heart, please try to forgive me.
Mona's Story
I don't remember what book I was reading, but I do remember I never finished it. I threw it away. It would always remind me of that night.
I heard the back door open and thought, Gary's home a little early—must have been a short meeting.
I heard him walk down the hallway. He opened the bedroom door and just stood there, staring at me.
I said something like, "How'd your meeting go?" I watched as my husband of more than nineteen years began to crumble. His body sagged as if under a heavy weight.
His eyes filled with tears and he said, "We have to talk."
I knew something was terribly wrong and remember thinking someone had died. I wonder if it's our pastor. He must have found out something horrible at the church meeting. Compassion overwhelmed my heart, and I reached out my arms, inviting him in. "Oh, honey, what's wrong?"
He came to the bed, sat down by me, and allowed me to hold him while sobs racked his body. I had never seen him like this. Through his muffled tears I heard, "I have betrayed you."
I felt my body stiffen. A tragedy had happened, not to someone else, but to me. My mind refused to process his words. "What?"
"I have been having an affair."
These words penetrated, and I felt my own tears rise. I heard the word come from my mouth before I realized I had even thought it: "Who?"
Why was there no surprise when he said her name? I remember even then knowing there was really only one true possibility. I also remember other names going through my head, almost hoping he'd say one of those instead. I had never suspected. I trusted them both implicitly. He was my husband, whom I loved and who I thought loved me. She was his coworker, a fellow church member, and the woman I had considered my best Christian friend for the past three or four years.
"How long?" I asked.
"Awhile," he mumbled.
I began to feel the first stirring of rage. "How long?"
"A couple of years maybe."
Not just once or even twice. Not a few weeks or even a few months! Was I a complete idiot? How could something like this go on for so long and I not even have a clue? They must have thought I was so stupid! How many times had they laughed at my naïveté?
I pulled away from him, unable to touch him, unable to do much more than breathe.
Then I heard these words: "There's more."
More? More than the destruction of my life, my family, my church, my home? More?
"I also had a one-night stand with another woman." Then he named her, a twenty-year-old single mother and non-Christian with whom we'd had business dealings.
"She came over one night uninvited when you were gone."
Here? In my house? Nothing was sacred. Every aspect of my life was involved. My home. The church where I always sat with my best friend. Gary's production business where I worked part-time. Even the hospital where I worked as a nurse was filled with people who crossed over into these aspects of my life.
I was nauseous. Repulsed. This was something horrible men did. Not my Gary! Not the man I had always jokingly said I'd have to catch in bed naked before I'd ever believe he'd be unfaithful. The man couldn't lie for beans.
Gary was not the man I had thought he was, but I was no longer sure who I was either. For that matter, who were we as a couple? Were we a couple?
I looked at him and froze. This was the man I'd been married to for almost twenty years. He'd been my lover, my best friend, and my confidant. My family loved him because he was so wonderful. All my friends thought he was wonderful—he did dishes, laundry, and changed diapers. I had lost count of how many times I'd been told how lucky I was.
My body was numb, wooden, overwhelmed. The weight Gary had walked into our bedroom wearing was now being shared.
"Do you love her?"
"No."
"Do you want a divorce?"
"No."
"Does her husband know?"
"I think she's waiting to see if I really tell you first."
"You have to let her go."
"I know."
The particulars of our conversation blur in retrospect. He told me he had gone to the church to confess to our pastor. The pastor had called in another pastor, they had all prayed, and then they sent Gary home to tell me.
He told me that the recording studio engineer had confronted him that day. He had suspected what was going on and had gone to his pastor, who advised him to confront Gary. What strength that must have taken for such a young man!
Gary said God had been preparing him for this revelation for a long time. Promise Keepers, meetings, sermons, his conscience. He had felt trapped in the relationship with his coworker for quite a while. If he broke it off, he knew the ramifications and the possibility of losing his family, his business, and his church. They had broken it off many times in the past and yet would find themselves back together. He couldn't remember when it started, but the last time they'd been together was just three days earlier. I remembered trying to reach him that day. They had gone out of town to see a client and I'd wondered why they were so late getting back.
As I tried to pin down the time period of the affair, it became clear that it had been going on for about three years. It began shortly after she started working with us. Her marriage was in trouble and had been for a very long time. She and I had talked about it often together. I felt like such a fool. Gary and I had even discussed her vulnerability and her attractiveness before they started working together. I knew she envied our relationship, but I hadn't realized that she had actually been wishing for Gary himself. She, as it turned out, knew better than I what my marriage was really like.
That night my life took on a new timetable: before the affair, during the affair, and after the affair. Everything during was now marred and distorted: our family trip to Disneyland, Gary and I going to Hawaii. I recalled snippets of conversation with both Gary and my friend and suddenly heard and saw completely different things.
He asked me that night if I would come to work for him fulltime at our production company and we'd rebuild our lives and the business. I was furious. How dare he! I told him I wasn't going to give up any more of me than he'd already ripped away. I was a nurse. I was a good nurse. I couldn't lose that, too.
He asked me if I wanted a divorce, and I said no. What would that do to our boys? Where would I go? What would I do?
We talked about counseling. To what end? I was so overwhelmed that even counseling seemed senseless. I wanted it never to have happened and a counselor couldn't do that.
Gary told me about the night the young woman had come over and seduced him. He said it was very intentional on her part. I said that did not exonerate him. He knew that. The story of that one-night stand sounded like a despicable movie.
Soon it seemed there was nothing left to talk about. Or maybe it was just that we were incapable of talking anymore. Gary reassured me that he loved me and wished he could take it all away. He asked for my forgiveness and told me he'd do anything I asked. I knew that adultery was biblical grounds for divorce, but I didn't know if that still applied when the offender repents and asks for forgiveness.
My mind, soul, and body were exhausted by the events of the night. I knew I wanted to follow God in this, no matter where that led. I knew I needed a godly friend and felt again the pain of loss. Who would I call now that my two best friends had betrayed me?
When we went to bed, Gary asked if I wanted him to sleep somewhere else. I said no. I figured he'd been in my bed during the last three years, so what difference would it make now?
And so I clung to my edge of the bed and listened to my husband fall into a deep and restful sleep. Sleep would evade me. I would spend most of what was left of that night in the family room crying.
Gary's weight had begun to lift. Mine had only just begun to press heavily upon me.
The Story on Revelation
That night happened in 1993. We can now say with absolute sincerity that we have fully healed from the adultery. Our marriage is strong and mutually satisfying. We have love and trust.
We refuse, however, to say that our marriage is better. We had heard "now they have a better marriage" in reference to couples who had gone through serious problems, and it only caused us more pain. We'd thought our marriage was good before the adultery. We loved each other; we were best friends. Certainly we had issues; all couples do. But our marriage prior to the adultery had value and was good. What happened to us happened to a good marriage. Most people have a hard time believing that because if they do, it makes every marriage vulnerable—including their own. Certainly there are those instances when the whys and wherefores are clear, but often all the answers we seek cannot be found. So instead we say we are wiser than we were then. We make better choices now. And we no longer believe we are invulnerable to attack. Our marriage is better only because the two people in it are now better people.
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Learn more and connect at http://www.hopeandhealing.us
Statistics show that one in every four marriages is impacted by infidelity. If you haven't experienced the searing pain of unfaithfulness, odds are you know someone who has. The affects of infidelity are devastating and have destroyed many families, but adultery doesn't have to be an automatic death sentence for your marriage. You can trust again. You can restore intimacy. You can have a relationship that you will both cherish for a lifetime.
Gary and Mona Shriver experienced the devastation caused by adultery. They searched in vain for another couple who could assure them healing was possible. After a lot of hard work and counseling healing was accomplished and they became that couple for someone else and cofounded Hope and Healing Ministries, Inc., a Christian peer support ministry for couples in adultery recovery. www.hopeandhealing.us They have seen countless broken marriages restored and transformed into intimate relationships built on love, respect, and trust. Hope & Healing offers many resources to help couples on that journey. Gary & Mona and the Hope & Healing team are available to those seeking support for this difficult healing process.They can be reached through the website, www.hopeandhealing.us.
Gary & Mona also wrote Unfaithful: Hope and Healing after Infidelity, the true story of how God restored their unraveling marriage. Raw and transparently honest, the Shriver's story alone is an inspiration, offering hope and practical strategies for healing. In this revised version, the authors add new information on emotional affairs and share real life stories of betrayal and complete healing. Unfaithful is a lifeline for couples with no hope in sight. It is also a useful resource for ministers, counselors, as well as friends and family of couples struggling to recover after a spouse has strayed.
They have shared their story of hope many times on The 700 Club, Focus on the Family, and RBC's Words to Live By. Gary, who owns an audio and video production facility, and Mona, a former nurse active in women's ministries, have been married over 40 years and have three grown sons. They reside in Turlock, California.
Learn more and connect at http://www.hopeandhealing.us
Statistics show that one in every four marriages is impacted by infidelity. If you haven't experienced the searing pain of unfaithfulness, odds are you know someone who has. The affects of infidelity are devastating and have destroyed many families, but adultery doesn't have to be an automatic death sentence for your marriage. You can trust again. You can restore intimacy. You can have a relationship that you will both cherish for a lifetime.
Gary and Mona Shriver experienced the devastation caused by adultery. They searched in vain for another couple who could assure them healing was possible. After a lot of hard work and counseling healing was accomplished and they became that couple for someone else and cofounded Hope and Healing Ministries, Inc., a Christian peer support ministry for couples in adultery recovery. www.hopeandhealing.us They have seen countless broken marriages restored and transformed into intimate relationships built on love, respect, and trust. Hope & Healing offers many resources to help couples on that journey. Gary & Mona and the Hope & Healing team are available to those seeking support for this difficult healing process.They can be reached through the website, www.hopeandhealing.us.
Gary & Mona also wrote Unfaithful: Hope and Healing after Infidelity, the true story of how God restored their unraveling marriage. Raw and transparently honest, the Shriver's story alone is an inspiration, offering hope and practical strategies for healing. In this revised version, the authors add new information on emotional affairs and share real life stories of betrayal and complete healing. Unfaithful is a lifeline for couples with no hope in sight. It is also a useful resource for ministers, counselors, as well as friends and family of couples struggling to recover after a spouse has strayed.
They have shared their story of hope many times on The 700 Club, Focus on the Family, and RBC's Words to Live By. Gary, who owns an audio and video production facility, and Mona, a former nurse active in women's ministries, have been married over 40 years and have three grown sons. They reside in Turlock, California.
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It took me reading this to understand how important complete honesty is in order to recover our marriage. It is not an easy thing to sit in front of the woman you love and married as she asks you questions, and admit openly and without reservation that you betrayed her in affairs with other women. I can easily say it has been the most difficult task of my entire adult life, bar none. This book shows you how that honesty, while impossibly painful for you and your spouse to discuss, is the first building block of trust that you will come too.
"Unfaithful" goes further to discuss the different processes of recovery, and how they coped through it all. They are unapologetically open and direct, always encouraging, and give hope in every paragraph that you read. Most importantly, they have helped me to focus on God in my life, and how to lean on him for the support to overcome impossible odds.
We are not out of the woods yet, and still have plenty of hard work ahead of us. However, we are committed to God, ourselves, and each other. I can not recommend this book highly enough to anyone going through this awful mess, and I will pray for anyone who finds themselves in circumstances that land them in the midst of the pages.
Gary & Mona, thank you for this. You've been a gift from God to me.
I would recommend this book to not only those who have been touched by infidelity but I think this could be a great resource for newly married couples so they could get a glimpse of the incredible pain that awaits if the precious line of fidelity is crossed.
Thank you Gary and Mona for being obedient to God's calling to share your story. You have been a blessing to me.
Gary & Mona Shriver share their story of how a one year affair PLUS another short term fling nearly ruined their married. Nearly, but it didn't. They open up & share on what the reasons were that led to the affair, how they waded thorough deciding whether to work it out or give up & how they were able to get back on track. They openly share their passion to help other couples who are wondering what just happened to their lives & who feel like they're all alone.
I really loved this book & the fact that they shared from THEIR own personal experiences w/o holding back, for the readers' sake, made me connect w/ them even more. If you're looking at this book, chances are you've been affected by an affair, in one way or another. Pick up this book, open up your heart & let the healing & hope begin.